So glad to be complex


As I was reading this book to my boys, I came across these two pages…

” Even when I look a mess, I still don’t like me any less, cause nothing in this world, you know, can change what’s deep inside, and so…No matter if they stop and stare, no person ever anywhere can make me feel that what they see is all there really is to me.”

And I turned the page and said “Amen!” I have a feeling that I am not the only women who is in motherhood boot camp. Emptying yourself every day into tinny little lives. I, like many, find myself busy with changing diapers, trying to keep up with endless laundry, working outside the home, cooking meals, bathing bottoms, nursing a newborn, trying to keep some kind of order in the house (which is a never-ending task), and when I get around to it, I like to shower.

I understand some women are not here at all, in this stage of life. You may be working full-time in the work force, single or married, with or without children. You may be young or old, yet one thing I know we all have in common, there is MORE to us than what you can see.

I am not just Koby, Ky, and Levi’s mom. I am not just Larry’s wife. The Lord has made me deeply complex and I am so glad. I have passions and giftings that he has given me that you can’t see when I am pushing 3 small children in a stroller. I maybe engulfed in mothering right now, yet I know I have a calling and a purpose outside of mothering to fulfill as well.

No matter what stage in life you may be in, don’t allow your passions, your calling, your hidden gifts and talents to get lost or lose their sparkle. Don’t allow someone to put you in a box. Allow the Lord to use ALL of who you are for his glory. I may look a mess, but what you see is not all there is to me!


About Emily French

I am in a place right now where I am so full. Full of love, full of life, full of joy. I love being the mom to my three sons Koby, Zekiah, and Levi. I love being the wife to my husband Larry. I am the Contemporary Music Director for East Cross United Methodist and the Program Coordinator and Creator of MUTUAL Gold a program that teaches girl "They are Worth More than Gold." I am spending my days doing things that are precious to my heart. I have found true Joy.

2 responses »

  1. I’ve actually never read that book. 🙂 I’m assuming it’s one you borrowed from me, lol. I completely understand your feelings there. It can be frustrating when people only see us as one role and there is so much more that makes you, YOU! 🙂 Love your thoughts!

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