To be Nothing


 “This is what real world-changing power looks like: the meek, the broken-hearted, the wounded, the little people and the people who are hungry for justice; that’s how the world changes, not through the big people we see as power brokers.” N.T. Wright

I was sitting in quiet as my mind wandered off, and I thought about some of my teenage aspirations. In high school I had the opportunity to have many leading roles and solos in our musical productions, in college I had many opportunities to shine as a vocalist and worship leader along with recording a CD. I dreamt of getting to be a Christian singer and of doing free concerts so people of every creed could come despite their circumstances. I dreamt of traveling and ministering to people through music and being “famous.”

I just turned 29 on Saturday, I am not famous yet by any means.  I think every artists goal is to be able to do what they love and get paid for it and I am extremely privileged that I  have that opportunity. It is funny how in high school and college we might think we are really something. The athlete that was the star of his team, the actress with all the leads, the pianist that everyone admired, the soloist who everyone talked about, the smart one, the leader of all the clubs or the student body president. We might think for a minute that we are really something special. Then you turn 29 and you look around and you are in this big pond with a lot of other fish and we are all just swimming. You are raising kids, working, doing your best to serve your community and you begin to realize you are NOTHING and there is a very good chance that you will live the rest of your life as NOTHING or just another fish.

My dad said something to me recently that has stuck in my heart, as he and my mom travel all over the world doing missions, he said; “The greatest thing I have to offer is that I am NOTHING.”  In the last 2 years this reality and truth has become my teacher. There was another man who had the same approach towards life,

” In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:Who, being in very nature God,  did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;  rather, he made himself NOTHING by taking the very nature of a servant,  being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man,  he humbled himself  by becoming obedient to death — even death on a cross!” (Phil 2:5-8)

This idea is not new or overly radical, it is really the message Christ came to share and to show. In the sermon on the mount he taught us right from the start, blessed are the poor, the meek, the hungry, the merciful, the pure, or blessed are the nothings. He taught us that the one that would be considered greatest would be the servant of all.

I am realizing that maybe being NOTHING is exactly what God wants for me and in my nothing-ness maybe this is where he can do the most good. Do you want to be nothing?


About Emily French

I am in a place right now where I am so full. Full of love, full of life, full of joy. I love being the mom to my three sons Koby, Zekiah, and Levi. I love being the wife to my husband Larry. I am the Contemporary Music Director for East Cross United Methodist and the Program Coordinator and Creator of MUTUAL Gold a program that teaches girl "They are Worth More than Gold." I am spending my days doing things that are precious to my heart. I have found true Joy.

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